Wednesday, May 22, 2019

A Writer Admired:Dr. Seuss – Theodor Seuss Giesel – father of Horton who I heard *







Dr. Seuss – Theodor Seuss Giesel – father of Horton who I heard *
long ago lived the small me
big eyed and quite serious
some said an “old soul” a
little mysterious ….
Questioning rabbis, teachers,
father and mother – questions
‘bout G-d and country and why
some people did what they did
to each other. Up late at night
watching dark curtains sway
unable to sleep, or even to pray
Even grandparents and elders
never knew what to say – when
I simply asked them why some
people treated others in a horrible
way – I’d seen pictures of piles of
childrens’ ripped away shoes, was
more than enough to give a small
child the blues – I continued to
ask all I could find – the strangest
thing was that most grownups did
very much mind – did mind that I
knew and questioned about things
not so cheery- they looked back at
my big eyes awaiting with looks that
were, well, yes, I’d say leery –
Leery of what? I wondered
about that too -! for I only wanted
to know what, what could I possibly do –
But, they shied away from my questions
told me to go out and play – when all
along I knew they did not know what
to say – and there were other things too
not just this old war stuff from back then
the way some people were treated it looked
like it could start up again – I stopped asking
so much and read and read more – even found
uncle’s book on a doctor Sigmund when I opened
his door – but it wasn’t until I found a big picture
book by another Doctor that I stopped and gulped
and took in a big look!!!
For there in of all places in this “childrens’” book
there it was! not the answer for don’t but the guideline for does!
Right there in sweet rhymes –
an elephantos whale of a tale – of how all could be set
right going forward marching on out there into our future times –
A tale of morality, persistence and kind
A tale of empathy, passion, courage and of so much
more – a tale of standing up for what one believes
one must stand up and fight for –
and there in the words was the
validation I sought – that view of the world as I thought
it could be ‘ought’ – the ache that I felt could vanish if all
just accepted and lived the sweet credo that a
“person’s a person no matter how small”


* inspired by prompt at Poetic Asides to use a writer's name as title of poem - on re-reading this lovely book - it occurred to me, given our turbulent times then and NOW, why this book moved me so profoundly. 

Sunday, May 19, 2019

dare


dare

We all sit in our own booth 
ears straining to hear our song
Others walking quick stepped or slow 
footfalls of mercy or damnation we do
never know - as we sit in our own booth -
contemplating a new song, a verdant  new 
beginning -  emerging from souled cement 
from our own booth,  blinking softly in the light 
we dare to open the gate ... 
we dare to open the gate. 

The Song




The Song 

There through the gate on rusty hinges 
walking through trials of hope, surprise, 
and anticipated mercy ... 
walking through the gate on rusty hinges 
there on the other side cement gives way
to green pastures 
I kick off my shoes
let my heart fill once


Thursday, April 18, 2019

Little lights ...


Little lights 

sleep over – at my grand-
mother’s as a tiny child –
She had a green wooden
back porch and rickety
stairs that creaked down
to a yard that to my four-
year-old self was football
sized – hydrangeas – those
snow-ball bushes bursted
blooms big as basketballs –
and that hot summer night
given a mason jar – she
told me about fire-flies.
They sounded magical.
I could not wait – even
before sunset and after
my bath – dressed only
in one of her satin slips
straps sliding – skirt
slippery swirling round
my ankles – I tiptoed
bare-foot down the
stairs and waited –
the jar grew heavy
and heavier – as the
sun still held in the
sky – Not sure when
my eyes closed but
when they opened
it was dark and I
was on my grand-
mother’s lap –
“Look” said she – and
in the navy night the
air flickered -flashed


as though fairies dipped

and danced peeking in
and out of the darkness
I was enchanted. 

Slid from her lap –

mason jar bumped
to the grass – I did
not wish to catch,
only to whirl with,
and I turned in
circles in the dark,
fireflies on fingers
in my hair, I was in-
vincible – blessed –
immortal – mystic
metapmorphasized –
a princess in the
living diamonds –
scattered shimmers
through that night –
I never knew
that one needed
dark to see light
until then ..
on that
firefly
night.
And now
tonight
another
night
dark
and
we
are
the
fire
flies…
now…

Thursday, April 11, 2019

Dedication to origins



Dedication to origins   

I come from the loins of teenage 
passion - think  Here From Eternity 
at a lake in the. Catskills - I come from 
the watchful whirling spectator of two
youngsters in love - singing from song 
sheets - playing handball on bare apartment 
walls - rocking their mattress in what I thought 
was their private wrestling game that they so 
enjoyed - I come from a movie idol dad lighting 
two cigarettes and giving one to my mom with 
the perfect tawny skin and tangerine lips - 
and from beyond this literal love - beneath - to 
the seductive scent of turpentine, the story beneath 
music-trembling-walls,  sinking into my soul as my 
tiny chest trembled - I come from the coalescence of 
survival in the face of oppression of having my small 
face turned to ingest the taste of ash - to feel the closing 
chambers - feel the forest and swamps beneath the ripped
feet of the fortunate -to fall into a hand hewn grave and to
burn bright in the crematorium of forever - I come from endless 
wondering at the ponderous spectrum between the poles of 
love and hate and a continuing incomprehension of indifference. 
I come from the far beyond then, the life bound then, the evolving 
this, and the thrusting forward into the then as yet unwrit ...
In dedication to these flickered images of origin and the 
layered miasmic, the mummurated mass of all omitted ...
each moment touched and razor scored another layer on my soul ...
earthbound still and yet dedicated to the sensed oneness that 
connects this filamented me to it
all. 

  

Saturday, April 6, 2019

If … only




If … only


If only I could catch 
the whisper in the wind –
a single floated chestnut
blossom, the tincture-tang
of turpentine, shimmer of
ebon raven’s wing –
If only -
after all, 
I could coalesce 
all contained, re-
tained, imprinted
held to converge
from this anchored 
soul’s simple loving will
you manifested from the All 
where filamented you persist
to a-light 
on earth 
for yet
another
sacred 
touch 

Friday, April 5, 2019

4 poems inspired by the prompt "Stolen" Day 5. PAD (Poetic Asides)



Four and a half months 

On an April afternoon filled with sunlight
I painted my kitchen with bright yellow enamel
thought I felt The Universe smiling upon me –
Until she crept into the day, stealing buried treasure
Stolen: at four and a half months into an unaware 
childbearing - My tiny daughter, snatched, though 
I never knew for certain she was a girl, I felt her –
Felt her trapped in a Fallopian Faustian horror – 
could see her, caught, captured and squeezed, 
beating her miniature fists and feet on closing walls – 
A well intentioned and sweetly Catholic friend-of-the-
family surgeon – assured me when I awoke with –
one tube and no child to be – assured me smiling 
gently that the child had been perfect – compounding 
the theft – demolishing any this-is-for-the-best peace 
of mind – successfully twinning grief and guilt 
grief and guilt – at my inability to keep her safe. 
I stayed on the maternity floor listening to the 
unstolen infants –my daughter’s future colleagues. 


That Autumn – the Universe called again – yet again just
at four and one half months – of a newly anointed child-
to-be - One I felt fluttering breasts strokes and somersaults
within my womb – In a gush of blood more blindingly bright
than any seen before or since …the theft began - again – 
A short time later – gowned and bedded – a student nurse 
at my side – I felt the slip slide of my child whoosh from me 
as its soul danced somewhere 
beyond my puny understanding. 

I believe the Universe is kind and often smiles upon me as on
all others and yet, and yet. 
I know Her other face and name from long, long ago –
Thief.   


Freely given 

I never had a kiss stolen
or a watch or wallet - 
nothing of that sort
 all that flew away 
from me - 
was given - 
either directly 
before or after
the fact - but..
time ... time..
lately there has
been Time which
I have allowed to
slip -  stolen only
by my magnificent
arrogant negligence
of its importance and
so I return - calming 
this pounding heart
for moments, months,
years that have no re-
clamation and avow to
be more mind-full
now and ever 
more
as the
clock 
ticks

stolen? 

his first laugh and the gales that followed
the way he pulled himself up and stood on
two feet, ten toes unrecognizable to me, 
the flash of new teeth pushing through 
the color his eyes became after newborn days
his third, fourth, fifth, sixth, seventh, eighth,
ninth, tenth, eleventh, twelfth, thirteenth, 
fourteenth, fifteenth, sixteenth, seventeenth,
eighteenth, nineteenth, twentieth, twenty-first, 
twenty-second, months. 
the delight of recognition in his eyes 
when he sees me
and reaches up
for a hug
this first-born
grandson -
six minutes
in geography
and an infinite
abyss of un-
explained
unrelenting
banishment
away. 
Stolen?
I'd say.



Grown and Flown Away – Matricide in modernity 
(a clumsy stab at a vilanelle) 

My son has grown and flown away
His ringtone silent, long now still
There is he says nothing more to say

He lives behind an enmity of gray
Beyond all pleadings, talk and why and will
My son has grown and flown away 

Cast me as though dead each day
I cannot revoke love nor maternity
There is nothing more to say 

Why is it that the words still play
In ever thronging bonging possibility 
My son has grown and flown away 

Posits and poetry flutter and lay 
He cannot read what he will not see
There is I suppose nothing more to say 

What would the Oracle say of this modern matricidal display
Irrevocable, inviolable love blood borne by him - incredibly
My son. My son has grown and somehow flown away 
It simply cannot be that there is nothing more to say 



This year 

this year as fires wave 

too much silence to find
in the face of implacable 
Mother Earth - garments 
shredding, poets writing, 
as the world searches for 
one or three or any wise 
men or women - a bright 
star to see - as heads 
across this globe are 
bowing under the weight 
of hatred loosed -
this year as fires wave -
sweet rain is gathering 
ready to fall fast and soft
on all fires - freeing 
blossoms 
waiting 
to be born 

Grown and Flown Away – Matricide in modernity


Grown and Flown Away – Matricide in modernity 
( Note: a bit of “House on the Hill” by Edward Arlington Robinson – a nod to Oedipus in this stab at playing around with my take on a villanelle – I played around a bit - added words to the final lines and changed the first two second line rhymes to mimic House on the Hill.) 
Grown and Flown Away – Matricide in modernity 
My son has grown and flown away
His ringtone silent, long now still
There is he says nothing more to say
He lives behind an enmity of gray
Beyond all pleadings, talk and why and will
My son has grown and flown away 
Cast me as though dead each day
I cannot revoke love nor maternity
There is nothing more to say 
Why is it that the words still play
In ever thronging bonging possibility
My son has grown and flown away 
Posits and poetry flutter and lay
He cannot read what he will not see
There is I suppose nothing more to say 
What would the Oracle say of this modern matricidal display
Irrevocable, inviolable love blood borne by him – incredibly
My son. My son has grown and somehow flown away
It simply cannot be that there is nothing more to say

Sunday, March 17, 2019

This year




This year 

this year as fires wave 
too much silence to find
in the face of implacable 
Mother Earth - garments 
shredding, poets writing, 
as the world searches for 
one or three or any wise 
men or women - a bright 
star to see - as heads 
across this globe are 
bowing under the weight 
of hatred loosed -
this year as fires wave -
sweet rain is gathering 
ready to fall fast and soft
on all fires - freeing 
blossoms 
waiting 
to be born 




















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