Tuesday, April 13, 2021

The end of hate based on conviction of hope - letter to an unborn great-grandchild of a gestating future (my attempt at an Sestina);



 


The end of hate based on conviction of hope 

- letter to an unborn great-grandchild of a gestating  future 

(my attempt at a Sestina) 


Dear Great-Grandchild you may soon learn about a time of convict-

ion - a time when the  young danced in the streets belief powerful -great

were the beat of true hearts, searching the horizon for oncoming play 

They dressed in vestments and tapestries of each human tint of race 

was a surreal time: plague of politic, hate and, a sudden come season 

of reason a -feet twitched to march, to dance and give voice 


For overwhelmed by hate -throngs turned to hope with inevitable voice 

yearning for choice,tired of log jams and fear, near came a stir to convict

the naysayers of hope that lived in castles of salt, a vinegar season

As a rising tide grew to magnificent height -rose a wave never as  great

there were those -children, all ages, of this new wave, who ran to race

others in castles, denying disgrace, who chuckled  as at a comedic play 


Yet,through the land came a stirring, a deep dipping graceful plie 

and small children and oldersters began a low humming voice -

a voice continued to grow one to one- stretched and ready to race

there was singing and talking long into the night as the castle convicts

refused to see light or the song, or the tide rising salt sprayed and great 

beginning the seminal inflection point where hate just fell out of season 


The old-timers stretched and spoke of long ago tales season-

ed, their time in the sun when they waited for reasoned fair-play 

about  how time after time - disappointments were deep and great 

as they marched, carried signs, gave speeches and sang in loud voice 

as many, yes tis true, were killed and too few charged, less convict-

ed-ucation was twisted and chunks of history gagged and erase/d


drained and defaced the blood, sweat and tears - white washed all race

whilst mamas of color held their breath when their boys came to season 

fearing police sworn to serve and protect would find reason to convict

with conviction, as prisons and coffins filled with colored foreplay 

of a continuous fucking that continued day after day, but came a voice 

of choice, for yes dear one,flaying by color crept from humble to great 


Finally that humming, that thrumming grew loud and far great

joining threads torn by hate to a grand tapestry falling with g-race 

and up to those cloistered castles - even there was this strong voice 

of this choice kind of end times of privilege, now gone rot of all season, 

the land underfoot glowed with a blood earned tinged umber dis-play 

castles crumbled to sand and blew irrevocably away in convict/ion 


Without  a trial needed -hatred - a forgotten convict  -silent and great 

dear child, happily, you cannot grasp foul play based on hate and race 

Lives rode a long ago season -arrived at free choice - Listen to my voice  

Friday, April 2, 2021

On waves of aquamarine




On waves of aquamarine

 

at twenty – found myself in a white dress

father at my side – in an alcove heading

down an aisle that had nothing to do with

who I was or what I felt and no –there was

no little one pushing the walk – simply in-

explicable inertia at least inexplicable now

things were different then – I was different

then – went along to get along and there I 

walked – every road has a reason – this one

led after several months of the blurry groom

finishing service duty to a honeymoon – one

of those packages advertised on Thirty-Fourth 

Street, NY at Liberty Travel. The Virgin Islands,

almost aptly named – three islands one sleepy,

one with ‘night-life’ and one in the middle – 

I, a would be hippie Goldie Locks chose the 

“just right” middle – deplaned in a pale linen

sheath and Jackie O sunglasses in St. Croix

and as the doors opened was sucked as surely 

as Alice down the rabbit hole into wonderland.

I was home – frangipani filled my head – my

heart slowed and recalibrated a new rhythm 

as I walked down the plane steps I shook off shoes – 

in love with a place in a way that excluded my shorn

headed compatriot with the matching ring and his

distinctly different and wildly mecurial temperament.

But, that was that road – patently perfectly different

from the ticky-tacky houses of surburbia lined up 

on Long Island or Scarsdale that I foresaw with

chilled foreboding marching me onward on a conveyor

belt to my eventual plot in some tree laden stone garden. 

I had escaped … and stay I did, we did, - the marriage

surviving on the nectar of paradise – the brilliance 

of crimson flamboyant blossoms, bougainvillea and

crystal waters, friends with sail boats and cold wine,

crayfish pulled from the water, a job offered teaching

little children, eventually a baby of my own – a huge 

German Shepherd dog that ran free as childhood Lassie

a perfectly pointed Siamese cat rubbing my ankles -

sitting on a terrace nursing the child and watching

swallows swoop at sunset – uncaring when corrected

that they were bats after all – day after day unfolded

each presenting another gasp of agape wonder at

postcard beauty … as the baby stood and toddled

and the fellow with the matching band – sometimes

lost it and smashed something or needed ice for

his knuckles when they met my teeth – everything healed

quickly in the clear salt water, in the laughter of friends,

folk music on guitars, reggae dancing barefoot in the streets,

steel drums, and motorcycle rides through the rainforest – 

until he grew radically restless and needed to leave – began

the drumbeat that grew louder minute by minute, month by 

month, until suitcases packed I walked the plank to the plane 

into the open arms of family who mostly, but for one never 

understood why I had chosen to stay away – 

Every road has its destination – that one to inexpressible beauty 

and fruitfulness seeding the implantation of certainty that there 

was always another way, another road – another time -  

The matching ring cast to the wind with its wearer -violence it seems

does not melt easily in the cold New York winter – replace flamboyant 

blossoms with bare limbs of scrawny trees – in one of those neighborhoods 

escaped for just enough years – and one cannot help but see what is plain –

Another road, books, and libraries, papers and writing, trains, and teaching

teens, listening to the uncanny wisdom of a small child growing into the man

I knew he would become, friends, cold white wine on summer beaches, walks 

in The Village near grad school and more grad school, rushing home to sweet

little boy hugs and games, snuggles and hot chocolate and marshmallow snow days and when he visited family, allowable lust, oh that allowable consummated consummate lust. This jiggling path, from folk to disco, from fairy tales to Faulkner to Freud side by side with motherhood, and more big slips of paper for framing, letters to trail my name. Finally, a friend, with a centered center, unexpected love,

ready made children, a birthed book, and another and another with my name on the spines - This forsaken, forced upon road, this just long and windy enough road to build a career, a life, and feel the poetry of Caribbean warmth flooding veins in the coldest of days – moving forward on new roads – fed on with wisdom of that first footfall placed decisively on a path that felt right – continuing on all the others – that followed, all the others that continue to flow – to flow as clear as the crystalline confidence of the Caribbean sea – rocking me to tomorrow trusting in the path.